I followed tiptoe to Ravin as he was walking
by the sea shore alone in the evening. It made me feel strange to think about
the reason of why he would stay aloof and keep himself away from the lights and
the sound of the party. I only met him the day before at that office picnic at
Mandarmani, but I would not lie to surrender that I had fallen for him. He
looked the cutest among all and I just could not help myself as usual.
''Ummm...Hi'', I poked.
He turned to me in surprise
and resumed his walk without any reaction. I was slightly taken aback by such
reaction and marched along the same path with him. The whole one minute of
silence started to irritate me. I interrupted, ''Ravin, right? Well I am Mithu,
from Bhubaneswar. I guess this is not your
first time to this Bengal beach and so you are not so interested to join
in. Huh?''
-- ''Not really. I am bit
disturbed.''
--''Disturbed? Okay! So let me
cheer you up with some good news!''
He looked at me and coldly
said ''What?''
-- ''Tomorrow we'll be having
a beach party late night. Doesn't that sound exciting? I am so excited to think
what to wear!''
--''I am leaving tomorrow
morning.''
I was shocked to know his no
interest to such a breathtaking celebration. I gaped at him and screamed ''
Whaaaaaatt?''
He took a deep breath and
confirmed me about his leaving the day after. Suddenly, out of the blue he
asked me, ''Will you join me?''
The whole night I could not
sleep and had scratched my brain aimlessly. I had been always an extrovert
woman but such a hollow proposal made me restless to think deeper. The next
morning sharp at six I was ready with my luggage at his doorstep of the
resort-cottage. The sun was still fading in the foggy quilt. Ravin was in a
very casual dress with a big sling-bag and tapped me to follow him.
The Volvo-bus was late by an
hour to Kolkata. He called a taxi and asked the driver to take through E.M
Bypass. That was the first time I had been to Kolkata and at the very first
glimpse the city appeared so very busy
to me. ''Big double-decker buses and tram lines here and there with people with
no discipline on traffic rules.... Big crowds and markets everywhere with so
much noise and pollution'', my eyes almost had to filter the dusts and
pollution. Somehow we managed to overcome the traffic jam and crossed the city to
drive through a longer smooth way to Eastern Bypass. The cold air touched my
nostrils as I was hanging my head on the window pane and my eyes were forcibly
closed by the gust of the wind. The strangles of my hair messed up my face to
cover it up .
''It's a new city. You must up
the glass. You may catch cold.'', Ravin was concerned. I nodded my head and
continued to inhale the chilled air.
''Please take a U-turn and
stop in front of that white building,'' Ravin directed the cab driver. It was a
big white building with innumerable people, cars and... 'Ambulances'! I gazed
at Ravin with a puzzled look as he asked me to get in.
The doctor asked Ravin to wait
outside. I also did not know what exactly to do. I was so confused. I even did
not know why we were there. The only word that was roaming around my sense-organs
was ''Anjali''! I tried peeping through the glass side of her cabin and could
not take it to my strength. Thicker needles were penetrating into her thin
skin. Her eyes were closed. She was under tranquilizer. I turned to Ravin. He
was silent, sitting on the couch at one side. I again turned back. The little
girl was still asleep.
We ordered for two parathas
and sabji for each of us at a nearby roadside dhaba. I triggered as Ravin took
his first bite, ''Who's she?''
Ravin swallowed, looked at me
with his eyes reflecting some pain. He continued to start with his next bite
with his silent answer '' don't ask please!'' I was sure, something that I
could intuited and that within me over ruled such emptiness. ''Ravin, you can share
it with me. I am sure that would comfort you. I understand you are under some
pressure.''
His face was still lowered
down at his food except a drop that fell from his eyes to the table below it.
''Hey Ravin, it's alright. She will be fine. Ravin...'', I put my left hand on
his shoulder and tried to give him a piece of solace.
We drove to a nearby lake,
shadowed my myriad innumerable trees. The silent ambience away from the
bustling city and the shabby sunrays through leafy nests succored Ravin. He held
my hands tight and lowered down his face, belittled. ''Trust me, I never wanted
it. Please help me.'', Ravin uttered as he baffled with his sobs and pain. I
was perplexed to understand what to say to him next.
He cued in,'' Anjali is from
my village; she lost her parents in an accident after her birth. She stays with
her grandparents who are very poor. They don't have money to put their daughter
to a school. I convinced them and brought her to this city with me to put her
in school. And I had done this with a true and helping motto. Two weeks back
this five year old girl came with me to study. I love her like my daughter.
Trust me, you can even come to my house and check what things I have bought her
for her comfort and happiness.... Toys, dresses, books, crayons....Chocolates.
But...'', he covered his face and sighed. He started nodding his head so as to
disagree with something that was not supposed to happen at any cost. He closed
his eyes in a paroxysm and clutched his hair. I was silent and tried to review
what could have happened. He tried mending him up, '' It was a late Friday
night. I was drunk after the office party. When I unlocked the door, she was
sleeping on her bed with her bare legs curled. I just don't know what had
happened to me. I felt to kiss her lips and legs. And I dived on her. She tried
to scream and kick me in pain. But my demon stature easily could overcome her
fragile strength. And I RAPED her! ...Shit! How could I!!
The unwary incident did not
play so much to shock me. I was listening to him calmly. I knew he was
suffering more than Anjali. And he needed that shoulder for comfort and share
his unidentified mistake. I hugged him to make him feel fine.
He sobbed and said, '' Do you know, how Anjali
was suffering due to me, my stupid fault and greed? She was senseless. It took
me one full hour to return to reality. And thirty more minutes to take decisions
if to kill her and bury her or to hospitalize her. I called up Sandip. He is a
doctor and a college friend of mine. He
helped me to put her in the hospital and to continue with her treatment. Since
last one week she's sleeping like a cold stone. Did not even open her eyelids
once. Yesterday my mother had called me up to know about her. I lied. I said,
she has gone to play upstairs with the daughter of my neighbour. Ah! Shit! How
could I.... How could I...!!!!''
I had to spend the night at
Ravin's flat. I believed he could be a safe friend in this unknown city. But I
could not sleep for the whole night. So many thoughts crowded my mind. I peeped
in Ravin's room. He was sleeping like a child. I went to the kitchen to have a
coffee. The hot coffee and the starless dark sky of the silent city from the
balcony doped me to fall in love with it. The red blinking light from the far
off hoarding intense my emotions for the strange unknown city.
I don't remember when did I
fall asleep. The clattering of the window curtain woke me up. I found myself
sitting by the dining table with my head on it. Ravin smiled at me, ''seems you
could not rely. Not very strange too. Unknown city, unknown place, unknown
person and his known story. Isn't it?''
- Nothing like that Rav...
-It's alright buddy.
He cut me in the between of my
reply. I kept silent for a moment and tried changing the topic, ''When are we
leaving for the hospital?''
- You want to visit her?
- What do you mean by that? I
mean, why not?
He smiled back with his
twinkling eyes and said, '' so hurry up! Let's not be late.''
The city in the fresh morning
light looked appealing. The hide and seek of blue and white sky through the mesh
of tall apartments kissed my sight. The tree- less highway looked like my
toothless granny. And Ravin --- he looked fresh and crisp than ever!
The doctor confirmed about the
betterment of Anjali. Anjali had started responding to the medicines. But the
doctor could not confirm if she would suffer from any memory-loss. We were
waiting in the lobby. The nurse called Ravin in, ''Sir, please come in. Your
child is getting back senses.''
Ravin's eyes were sparkling
with joy, but again he stopped being scared of being recognized of his sin by
the little girl. Ravin was struggling with his dilemma. I stood up and held his hand. ''Ravin, go. She
needs you.'' Ravin followed the nurse. I was observing them from the glass side
of the cabin. I heard Ravin's cracked voice, ''Anjuu...Anjalii...''
---B-a-b-a-a...
---Yes sweetheart! Are you
alright? Is it paining so much?
---Ba-baa where were you? It has
pained here so much. What are we doing here? I want to go back home...
---We will dear, we will
pretty soon.
---Where is Mamma?
I could hear Anjali's feeble
voice. Ravin pointed at me. She turned to the glass side and spread her arms to
call me. I felt to be caught in the magnetic spell of the five year old Anjali.
Anjali was inefficient enough to suffer any more. And
after much scuffling she had at least survived. Say it a miracle or a curse,
she had forgotten her past and accepted Ravin as her father. Ravin is blessed
to have called as dad by Anjali and me
as well as Ma. Five years have passed. New incidents are tucked as time flies
by. Anjali is now studying in a reputed school. She is a brilliant student and
the best daughter any parent can have. Destiny is such a big magician that it lets
us three meet with no clue for each other and at the end of it, trapped us with
the same bait to each of us called ''the family''.
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